After his first day in court, he requested to see our daughter. The sheriff led him out of the courtroom into the hallway, and not knowing the laws, I started walking toward him thinking he would be able to touch and hold her. The deputy immediately told me to step back!
I had to be a certain distance from him as he was in custody of the state. He stood there dressed in a navy blue suit, brown shirt and tie, looking at our daughter who he could neither touch nor hold. He was only allotted a few minutes, and they had to take him back inside the jail. He requested that we stay and visit with him that evening. (Modified excerpt from my book, Behind the Bars of the Soul)
I thought during our visit we would have physical contact, but I learned that was not allowed. He walked into the visiting area in an orange jump suit, sat on a stool behind a glass window and picked up the phone… Visitation behind the walls of the jail was a major shift in my life.
The past two-three years there has been major shiftings in our world which has devastated many people. We were locked down, unbeknownst to us, in the confinements of our homes while the onset of our future was initiating.
We are in the holiday season when major depression, loneliness, isolate, and suicide rate’s escalates.
I often quote this scripture because it speaks volumes about the inner person… “For what person knows the thoughts and motives of a man except the man’s spirit within him? So also no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God”
(I Corinthians 2:11).
The level of trust is decreasing, people don’t know who to trust, including people in what should be the most sacred place, the house of God.
The irony of emotions and beliefs are conveyed opposite of what is seen outwardly or what is known. People believed to be friends are murders, sexual predators…the spirit of sin is rampant, as the hidden turmoils in the hearts of people escalate and explode.
You could be having a conversation with someone, eye to eye contact, and not realize the spirit of murder rest deep in the compartments of their heart. People within close proximity of murders have said, he or she was a nice person or a loner, quiet, different, and I never seen the signs.
David spoke these words to his son Solomon prior to him taking on a major task, building the most beautiful temple that ever existed. “…for the Lord searcheth all hearts, and understandeth all the imaginations of the thoughts. If you seek Him [inquiring for and of Him and requiring Him as your first and vital necessity] He will let you find Him; but if you abandon (turn away from) Him, He will reject you forever,” (I Chronicles 28:9).
Our hope and reliance is in God, who is omnipotent, infinite in power, and omnipresent, present everywhere, knowing the hidden deep thoughts of mankind’s hearts.
We don’t know what tomorrow holds… never imagine I would experience courts, lawyers, jail, and prison, but it was my path…
We did not imagine the lockdown and everything afterward, but we were chosen to witness what the prophets of old and early church spoke would happen in the last days… but!
There is a personality that He left with us, The third person of the trinity, the Holy Spirit… we need Him…He leads and guides us in this tumultuous world.